But not Steve or Dave.

Sometimes being scrubbed in is awful, like today. When I needed to be able to run to the john hourly. Had to ask Mike for a pad between long cases, but he's a pro, so that was ok.

Bloody irritated mess.

Damn it all.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

Fuck.

Butter, not margarine.

Count from here. As for me, I would not be that muscled slim self again, honestly. Gave me no pleasure.

I'll be soft, and spread.

Again

Resigned. Not surprized. Raw.

Bah.