Unpredictably unpredictable

Nine week gap, after an eight week gap. Nearly a relief. Definite slowing downness.

Becoming irregularly irregular.

That was a stretch

Starting without fanfare this morning. Save that the rosacea has been more pronounced this week. Just a thing.

Eight weeks, with six of those pestered with hots.

Cancelled day, OR broken.

Something nasty in the air controller. My lungs and sinuses are not happy. Ears ringing more than usual.

Best away from there.

Jan 24th

Which is a calendar month after. Hitting my brain hard. All the emotional symptoms too.

Fumbling.

Fool me once

FIL pushes us to send xmas card to blind 100+ grandmother son barely knows, I do not. I find her a lovely little music box, wrap and send it. Hear through son/DH it got there and liked. I do not get thanks directly. I know this is petty, but dear fuck, why not?

Not going to be guilted into more, ever again. I don't mind not being thanked, but I assume that more will not be appreciated, so why try again? Not a chance. I hate being pressured into obligation I do not agree I have in the first place. Act out of general kindness, am ignored.

Screw it if they try to put me on the spot again. No. No thanks. I'd rather not.

Merry Fucking Christmas

Really? Today? Gee, it shouldn't have.

Thanks.

November 28

Sour grapes, I've decided. Working ovaries keep my connective tissue in shape. Protect my heart.

So, whatever.