Just in case I can't find it later

THE HEART REMEMBERS EVERYTHING IT LOVED
Everything remembers something. The rock, its fiery bed,
cooling and fissuring into cracked pieces, the rub
of watery fingers along its edge.

The cloud remembers being elephant, camel, giraffe,
remembers being a veil over the face of the sun,
gathering itself together for the fall.

The turtle remembers the sea, sliding over and under
its belly, remembers legs like wings, escaping down
the sand under the beaks of savage birds.

The tree remembers the story of each ring, the years
of drought, the floods, the way things came
walking slowly towards it long ago.

And the skin remembers its scars, and the bone aches
where it was broken. The feet remember the dance,
and the arms remember lifting up the child.

The heart remembers everything it loved and gave away,
everything it lost and found again, and everyone
it loved, the heart cannot forget.
- Joyce Sutphen

Leave you there by yourself chained to fate.

Mom, all the times you protected me from the outside world? You did more damage than the world ever did. You neglected and manipulated and let me take your husband's wrath you nasty rat.

Gnaw on it in solitude, I won't explain now.

What is the deal with making this even worse?

Started yesterday morning. Found this story today. Could be worse.

As though it weren't bad enough, though.

So lonely

Really feeling the loss, however temporary. Dealing, but not well. Head getting in a particularly bad place.

Must be brave.

Tinky wink my ass.

Again, and again. Again for now. And.

So be it.

Yesterday, who gives a fuck

Started yesterday. Knew it the day before, broke favorite mug, cried. Want a vacation.

so done

Sub-critically bothered

Not as pronounced. Interrupted sleep on a low level. Wearing away on my nerves.

I chose a great name for this blog, and image to match, dinnit I?