The memory of smoke

The memory of smoke

Friday, September 28, 2012

Well, that does explain why he likes her.

Obnoxious cow-orker going on about new BF. Explaining that he has brain damage from an accident as a teen. And I have to walk away before making the obvious joke.

It ain't funny when you really, really mean it.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Feel like I'm chokin', everything is broken.

Blech toxic smoky not-at-all-air. Nauseated and aching, although the last could be from response to flu vaccine. Normal inflammatory reactions, feel mildly dreadful.

Not fair to be ill on my day off, dammit.

Monday, September 17, 2012

Karma will come calling

Idiot needs to leave me the fuck alone. Not putting up with her shit, not going to be the one to throw her into it though. I am certain she will do that to herself in her own good time, and walk wide eyed into her own destruction.

That is not my job, and cleaner to let natural consequences handle the details.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Weird thing about abused children and anxiety.

Oh, you know, give me a crisis and I'm good.  Give me time to think too much, and I'll make a mess of it all.  Instinctive, to kill the mouse, in my hand, because it was there, needed doing, can't let it go, then fill a glass with water, drop it in, cover with saucer, let drown, strip bed and remake, take drowned mouse to garbage bin, take melatonin, stay up 20 minutes to allow adrenaline to decrease, return to bed.

To get me really freaked, make me live without a fridge for a week, then bring the fridge, I'll get groceries, stock fridge, then lose my shit.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

The joys of ice

So annoying to be living out of a cooler. It's like all the worst bits of a vacation, with none of the fun. Including being a more expensive week than normal.

Annoying, not tragic, but still quite annoying.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Really gotta watch that content

Listening to the DNC, enthused, but with a lingering despair that the idiots will win. They so often do, and I'm getting wound up. Had a beer, drank it all since there is no refrigeration.

Didn't realize it was 9.7%, which is not helping.