Pains in vain

Got the trigger thumb injected by the Fellow on the 21st. Not feeling better yet, but no worse. Keeping foot wrapped in coban.

Tooth holding steady as well.

Pain in rain

All my joints hurt, thumb left, wrists, every finger, toes, heels, shoulders, elbows, back inclusive.

Hands worry me the most, since I need to keep dexterity to work. I need to talk to one of my hand surgeons about what I should do. Thumb brace helps keep me working, no pain with it on. But without it, thumb is not getting better. Surgery out of the question until brace no longer works.

Oh, and I have one tooth going bad, possibly a second one. Work starting on that next week.

I won't let this stop me, but it is slowing me down.

Thanks but no thanks

Long ago in another lifetime, I worked on the Hudson's Thanksgiving Day Parade in Detroit. I often took such gigs to pay for ramen. I hadn't dressed adequately for the cold, and it was all pretty miserable. Got back to my apartment, cold and ready to doze and warm up the rest of the day. Until the guy I'd recently started dating showed up and got pissy that I hadn't planned any thanksgiving feast. Well, thanksgiving was no a holiday for me. I should have dumped him right then. Would have saved a lot of pain. But it was the path toward my life now, long and rocky and painful as it was.

I would still never celebrate thanksgiving until 1990. Even then, it would be mostly the Friday after. It's an observation of gratitude I have warmed up to gradually, with a sidle and a side-eye.

Hands in

My left thumb triggers and aches. My right wrist and thumb are threatening occasionally. The hot flashes are very slowly ebbing, I think.

Just have to make it to retirement before I have to even consider surgery, the brace is working for now.

Giving away tampons

I’m calling it. I declare myself post fucking menopausal! Making a gift of my leftover supplies.

Glad, but the aches and age crowd in to fill the space.

Whence the coda?

What will I put here, once menopause is done? Hotflash documentation? Aches and pains?

Better here than complaining to anyone who will pretend to listen.

Mild sadness

Ten months, and I should make an appointment to be sure in September. Odd sense of age and sadness, no regrets about not having the babbys, only of deterioration of this body. The grey hair such a powerful visual.

But who knows how much longer I might steam on?

Nine months and counting

So, I will try to abstain from alcohol until this is an official year. But it does look like I may be home and vigorously toweling off. Nothing I can do until then.

But stay healthy and wait.