Playing the odds with women friends

In my half asleep halfdream she visits me, and asks me what she can do. And I tell her, "take the lead." And she isn't happy with this, that it's all on her. But I explain, no, it's because when I lead, I overwhelm, I take over, and I can't do that again, because it does not work. I push, I'm too intense, I ignore slights and neglects because I love entirely. I expect neglect from friendships - especially from women. I have to admit, I don't believe she will keep up the attempt to rebuild the friendship, she is not the odds-on favorite.

I'll stick with my love, and my cat, and let all other friendships go.